haha.

only when something is so completly wrong, can you find the right. its sad, but its the only way.

i felt so alone, like i thought i had no one there for me. sure people were there, and they care. theyre supposed to, if they dont, they'll be legally corrupt. a.k.a. parents. but my friends, the people you CHOOSE to be your family, theyre the ones who hurt most if theyre not there i think. i just want to write you in a song, put your smile on paper so you can sing along. its all mind games, and stupid puzzles, that if you dont get right once, you're gonna pay for it, in the long run for the amount of time they set out for you to suffer. they control your suffering, and you have to give in because you care so much. music is the only thing that is always ALWAYS going to be there. you just have to download or pay the label. upload your little megabytes of vibrations, dont forget to charge your ipod and press play. it's always gonna make you smile, cry, and sigh. complement your life, or completly dismember your heart. but the tracks differentiate into every emotion, whatever you feel, you click on the song. you want to: FUCK THE WORLD, fall in love <3, feel powerful, dance, cry, have a heartbeat, skip a heartbeat, remember, forget. its all there. when i was there on the gurney, with only pictures to "remind" myself of the friends i had, and how many of them actually cared. i just turned the pictures off and put on The Beatles. and believe it or not, i didnt feel lonely. lol. yeah.